I'm Just 17 ... But I Know I want more

Hi.
I don't know how you landed here-maybe by luck, maybe by choice.
but thank you for reading .🧡

I'm Suhani, 17 years old.

• Not a topper.
• Not rich.
• Not "famous" or "figured out."

But I do have something that doesn't show on the outside -

• A fire inside me. 
• A hunger for more.
• More than just existing.
• More than scrolling.
• More than being " just another girl."

💭You're too young ... just enjoy life 

That's what people usually say. and maybe they're right, in some way. but I can't stay still when I know I was meant for something bigger.

What if I don't want to waste my teenage years doing nothing? 

What if I want to build something real- something mine ?

👉 Where It All Started 

I recently passed 12th and joined BBA. 

• No fancy plans.
• No money NOT mine but yeah my parents money ( all want their own money)😅. 
• No big dreams ( I used to have but after some time that also gone).

Just me and this laptop. one day, I randomly my father told me what he want me to as. (IPS or IAS)

At first, it felt too big. 

like something meant for intelligent student who are good at study , who are rich kids, coaching students, or perfect English speakers.

but then I thought...      

       "Why not me?"

What if I could try - even with nothing?

And that's where my new journey began. Not with Books.

But with questions, curiosity, and courage.

❤ What I'm Doing With What I Have

I don't have coaching .

I don't have all the books.

I don't even have an ATM card. 😅

But here's what I do have:

• A laptop
• Free resource online 
• Youtube lectures
• NCERT PDFs
• And the will to show up every day.

I started learning little by little Watching. Reading. Asking, Writing. Somedays I feels proud of myself. Other days I feel stuck and behind.

But I don't stop.

😞The Hard Days Are Real 

There are moments when I overthink everything.

• "What if I'm too late?"
• "What if this doesn't work out?"
• "What if I fail?"

But even on those days , I remind myself: 

       "You started from zero. And you're still here. That's not weakness. That's strength."

No one talks about girl like us - 

The ones who fight silently.

Who build themselves quietly.

Who aren't born with chances- but make them anyway.

💌 Why I'm Writing This Blog

Not to impress.

Not to "go viral."

But t speak the truth. 

My truth.

If you're also a girl like me - 16, 17, maybe 19- And you feel lost, broke, behind, confused, or invisible...

Then this blog is for you. 

I want you to know:

You're not weak.

You're just becoming. 

And becoming takes time.

💮So... What Now?

Right now, I'm preparing for my BBA exam. After that, I'II fully start my UPSC journey. 

Will it be hard?

YES.

But I won't wait for the "prefect time." 

Because this is my time.

This is my Start.

This blog will be my space.

To write, share, grow, fail, learn, and come back stronger.

⭐Before You Go...

If no one told you today:

• You matter.
• You can start small.
• You don't need to be perfect to begin.

I started this blog with zero. And maybe - that's exactly where everything begins.

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With love💖,

Suhani

(A girl figuring it out- and not giving up)❤

"I'm not ahead. I'm not behind. I'm exactly where I need to be - becoming who I'm meant to be."